Have you thought about going into therapy, particularly with a therapist experienced in treating EDs.It is definitely best to try to do something when you first notice there is a problem instead of waiting years and years and becoming more and more miserable.

Probably you are eating too little and then that in turn leads you to binge which leads you to purge, which is an endless cycle.Once I recovered from my ED, I stopped thinking about food & exercise so much, which is a huge relief. I've been recovered 5 years now from anorexia, so, yes, it is possible to beat an ED, but I won't lie and say it is easy.I still have body image issues, but I always did, even when I was so skinny I was having a lot of health issues and felt tired and like crap all the time. You can never be skinny enough for the ED.

If you are interested, or just an avid reader, The Beauty Myth, by Naomi Wolf is very eye opening - in many ways for women, not just body image. I found it helped me to focus on the big, wide, world and not just a telescoped current obsession. America is great, but for women, it is weird and NOT the norm. Even the fashion world is making new rules about BMI. Naomi Wolf helps to point out that WE AS WOMEN decide what is and is not ok for us and for the media/beauty industry to promote.

So better you better stop thinking of food then you'll easily stop eating.And btw,is this book really efficient?I would have like to have one too.

Do you eat often throughout the day? Sounds like the key for you would be to keep from getting overly hungry. If it means throwing in an apple mid-day or incleasing your calories a bit everyday, it would be worth it in the long run to avoid the binging. Be prepared with healthy snacks for the first sign of hunger and do a kitchen/work makeover so that you don't have access to junk food.

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Tracy
Suite 101: Weight Loss